Where I am Now

So. It’s been a while since my last post.

I last left off wondering whether or not I was going to stick with my current job, or go back to a previous job that I had. I decided to stick it out with my current job, although neither job is worth the stress and anxiety that they give me.

And I have actually just decided that I’m going to hand in my resignation. I’ve been at my current job for exactly a year now, through the slow periods and the crazy busy periods. I had been hoping for some sort of redeeming aspect of my position; some interesting new task or some new responsibility.

I waited a year and I’ve decided that I can’t wait any longer. Life is too short to waste my time on something that is so frustrating and unfulfilling.

A couple days ago I purchased a book called “Roadmap: The get-it-together guide for figuring out what to do with our life.” Now, I’ve only looked through it briefly, but I’ve found it to be really eye-opening. My current career path is not cutting it for me. I need something else, something more fulfilling.

This book is from the creators of Roadtrip Nation, a documentary series. This group of people travelled around in RVs asking successful and fulfilled people how they got to where they are now. This book uses advice from those people to create a dialogue within the reader. I have found myself thinking, “It’s okay to hate the job I have because it’s getting me closer to figuring out what kind of job I actually want.”

This book makes the reader ask herself insightful questions about what she wants out of life. What do I like to do? What am I good at? Not every path toward success will be the same, and success won’t even look the same for every person.

I want something more out of life. I’ll be damned if I stay stuck behind a desk all day doing administrative work.

Now, it’s not like I’m quitting my job and moving to the middle of the woods (is it bad if that actually sounds kind of appealing to me though?). I’ve already had one interview, with a couple more on the way, and hopefully something new will come to me soon. But even if it takes a little longer than I would like, at least it will give me time to figure out a clearer direction in my life.

In my life I’m going to learn as much as I can and find something that I love to do. So in that spirit, I’m going to leave you with a quote from the memorable childhood TV series Magic School Bus:
Take chances, make mistakes, get messy!